Wahoo!

Great news, I haven't forgot about my the promise I made to myself regarding my future posts!

Now then, last night was a reet laugh, and made me feel I wasn't wasting my Saturday night. Me and Amy decided to do our, now weekly, 'piss up'. We basically find all the alcohol stored in our houses and drink it until we can no longer understand what each other is typing. Laughing fits are also included in this full filled event and they usually continue until the early hours of the morning. Its all just good clean fun.

So, today has been rather dull, I haven't really done anything all that productive. But hey, that's what Sunday's are for?

Oh and also, I've just decided not to post the rest of the conversations I've had with Curtis because it will take far too long and there is not much point. However, below you shall see the offline message I recently sent his that was stating where I am with this massive kerfuffle. The bit about me talking about why I didn't say 'I love you' back, is about the last conversation we had, the one where he was splurting his heart out all over the show. He changed his screen name to "UOY EVOL" and said it was a code I had to crack. He then asked me if I had figured out what it was. I said I had but I didn't want to say "I love you" back, because even though I do, I know it would only make things much harder for me with this how thing about him not being able to come online that often.

So anyway! Here is the offline message I sent:

"Hey I'm just leaving this message in case we don't speak tomorrow, or I forget to say.

Its sweet that you left me that code. :) I want you to know that I still have feelings for you, and I know I always will.I care about you a lot. The reason why I didn't want to say I love you back is because I'm scared I'd be letting myself jump into it all over again, and that I'd only end up getting hurt. I want to tell you I love you when we are properly together and in regular contact. I know that isn't possible for you right now. But I do hope that one day it will. I don't want to let go and try and forget everything about us, and how amazing it feels to be in love. But I don't want to hurt myself by being left waiting because you're not able to come online that often. I understand you have a busy life and that your Internet isn't always on, but it's not easy for me to wait. I want us to be like we were before so badly, and I will do anything for us to be together again. Please call and text me whenever you get the chance. I promise you wont have to phone 10 times before I answer :P Maybe in time, things will be different and we can be together again. But until then I just want to be able to speak to as often as possible. And I want you to know that there is always a space for you in my heart. And that you are always on my mind and in my thoughts."

End.