I had my music practical exam today, at 10:00am. I could feel my nerves before I'd even got to school and was already imagining the worse case scenario situation. Turns out I was making a mountain out of a molehill again. It went fine, I wasn't half as spazzy and nervous as I'd thought I would be. I did make a few mistakes, even though I'd practised it a trillion times before, I guess my nerves took over on that part a bit. Mrs.Thomas said I did good. She thinks I think I'm rubbish. Which isn't the case, and its not why I get all worked up and nervous. I suppose I've linked my past experiences of embarrassment and humiliation with these kind of situations and so dread them when they come, which is why I get so nervous. I'm working on it though. Mrs.Thomas said I just needed some more confidence, and I agree. She asked me if I would perform in front of a whole primary school consisting of 60 odd students. I was reluctant to accept. I told her if someone else was doing it as well then I wouldn't mind so much. She said Jack was playing his piece also in this primary school assembly. She'd managed to talk me into it, so I agreed. I thought that maybe this could be the confidence boost I'd needed for so long. 1 problem though, this assembly is next Tuesday! Arghghhgh.
More news; Derren Brown - Trick or Treat series 2 starts on Friday! WOOOOO! I'm excited already.
I watched a film today that my Mum and sister rented from the telly box last night. Its called 'Like Minds'. Its all psychological like. So of course I had to see it. I was not disappointed, but I wouldn't say it was one of my favourateist films. Still good nevertheless.
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I like your blog entries. Reminds me of my own halcyon school days, a word of advice: you wouldn't worry about what others thought about you, if you knew how seldom they did.
Good luck with your performance.
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